Crazed and Loving It!

It's the day before Thanksgiving and there is SO much going on. Seriously, I don't even know where to begin!! The past couple of weeks have seen MUCH to much working hours, great time spent with friends and a quiet apartment since Roommie has been away on a few of her gallivants. And things don't look to be slowing down for at least another week.

Work at the wine shop has been great and reminds me of how much I really miss working in an environment like this. Holidays were always such a busy time at the florist, but that's what I loved the best. Working myself down to be dead tired had never given me such a great satisfaction! The interaction with the customers, high energy craziness in general and working with a fun group of people! MUCH better than sitting behind a desk and looking at an Excel Spreadsheet all day long.

And my Holland Connection is finally home from his business trip, so our communication has resumed. *Squee!* I also told my sister that I'd be bringing my Skype headset with me to her house this coming weekend so he and I can chat. I do so miss the sound of his voice! And it's kind of funny because with the lack of communication and connection he and I have had over the past week or so, it's made me realize more and more how right I feel towards him. Yes I miss him, but I'm not obsessing over him (like my normal thing to do). I'm enjoying the feeling of knowing that he's thinking of me, too, but yet we can still lead our own lives...something that I have come to realize is very important in relationships.

I've also been helping Bubbles go through some stuff lately. She seems so angry at the world these days, and my heart bleeds and goes out to her. I know holidays aren't easy on her since her father died and her relationship with her mother has deteriorated. And I always try and be there for her as much as I can. But lately, with the holiday season AND lots of boy drama, she seems to be in rougher shape than usual. I wish nothing more for her than to just take it all away from her so she can be happy. I even told her she should ditch her holiday plans and come with me to my sister's for the weekend.

Then there's my brother. He and I are traveling to Jess's together for the holiday. I always have so much fun hanging out with him. Things weren't always so easy between us, but I do believe that we are both trying to find our balance as siblings and friends. The last time we took a road trip together we talked about a lot of things and I shared some things with him that he never knew about me before. It felt good to tell him and share that part of myself with him, knowing that it was only for him and nobody else. So I am very much looking forward to this trip, too. I am looking forward to the whole weekend actually, but I am afraid of something going south. My brother and father have seeing eye to eye less and less these days, and it causes strain and tension for everyone. For me, it's easy to see both sides of the coin when something comes up...not to take sides necessarily, but at the very least to understand where each is coming from. It's frustrating because at the holidays, all you want is just for your family to get along and have a good time! I am hoping that he sticks around this weekend to enjoy the time with family because I hardly see him and miss him terribly.

Now, if only he would just call me to let me know what time we're getting on the road...

If I don't post, have the Happiest of Thanksgivings!!